The Blahs
I must admit, lately I've been down with a case of the winter blahs. Tara and I joke that we have seasonal affective disorder, but boy, this winter has me thinking it may not be a joke after all. It isn't just me- I am looking around at the people I care about, and almost everyone seems to be sharing my experience. Sickness, everywhere. I honestly cannot list one person I know that hasn't been sick this winter. Just yesterday, my school had 80 kids absent. That makes a pretty big dent when your enrollment is 200. It's not just physical, though. I am sensing an all-around feeling of ick- depression, relationship woes, chaos at work, dissatisfaction with life in general.
Me, well, I've been sick. Good ol' sinus infection that just won't go away, and yep, I've tried it all. Right now, I'm just deciding not to fight it. Just rest and good foods and vitamins and water and walking outside when the weather's nice. Mostly getting comfortable with the fact that I'm in a blah time right now, but spring is around the corner.
Financially, things could be better. I had just read some really inspiring stuff about prosperity a couple weeks ago, and so I decided to just go for it. I asked the Universe for more money, specifically $500. Just a little test to see if anyone was listening, basically. Well, well, well. Guess what? Someone hacked into my Paypal account and cleared out my checking account. (Universe, are you listening? Perhaps you misunderstood...) Once it was investigated and resolved, Paypal began putting money back into my account, $500 at a time. I'm going to be honest here and say that I started to believe that the Universe had heard me, and that it had a very cruel sense of humor.
I owed $550 in taxes last year, so I reworked some things and had them take out more money each month. I was so excited about getting my taxes done this year because I really, truly expected a refund. Tara and I made plans to take a trip somewhere using the extra dough, but those plans came to a halt when my refund was...drumroll, please...seven dollars.
There is more. Oh, trust me, so much more. But most of it is stuff I can't discuss on here. I am not sharing this to get pity from you. I am truly, truly grateful for the good in my life. But I didn't want to get on here and be inauthentic and tell you that I am in a really good place in my life right now. I'm not.
You know what I want? (Universe, I know you're listening. Please take note.) I want springtime and fresh air and flowers. I want to make more laughter-inducing memories with my best friends. I want snow cones and capri pants and drives with the windows down. I want s'mores and drinks around a fire late in the night. I want to travel somewhere great with my best friend (tentative plans are in the works). I want to eat really delicious healthy foods and take walks in the sunshine and love, love, love this body. I want to read really juicy novels from my lawn chair. I want me, and the people I love, to live the really good life.
Winter, you and I are no longer on speaking terms.
Spring, please hurry.
Me, well, I've been sick. Good ol' sinus infection that just won't go away, and yep, I've tried it all. Right now, I'm just deciding not to fight it. Just rest and good foods and vitamins and water and walking outside when the weather's nice. Mostly getting comfortable with the fact that I'm in a blah time right now, but spring is around the corner.
Financially, things could be better. I had just read some really inspiring stuff about prosperity a couple weeks ago, and so I decided to just go for it. I asked the Universe for more money, specifically $500. Just a little test to see if anyone was listening, basically. Well, well, well. Guess what? Someone hacked into my Paypal account and cleared out my checking account. (Universe, are you listening? Perhaps you misunderstood...) Once it was investigated and resolved, Paypal began putting money back into my account, $500 at a time. I'm going to be honest here and say that I started to believe that the Universe had heard me, and that it had a very cruel sense of humor.
I owed $550 in taxes last year, so I reworked some things and had them take out more money each month. I was so excited about getting my taxes done this year because I really, truly expected a refund. Tara and I made plans to take a trip somewhere using the extra dough, but those plans came to a halt when my refund was...drumroll, please...seven dollars.
There is more. Oh, trust me, so much more. But most of it is stuff I can't discuss on here. I am not sharing this to get pity from you. I am truly, truly grateful for the good in my life. But I didn't want to get on here and be inauthentic and tell you that I am in a really good place in my life right now. I'm not.
You know what I want? (Universe, I know you're listening. Please take note.) I want springtime and fresh air and flowers. I want to make more laughter-inducing memories with my best friends. I want snow cones and capri pants and drives with the windows down. I want s'mores and drinks around a fire late in the night. I want to travel somewhere great with my best friend (tentative plans are in the works). I want to eat really delicious healthy foods and take walks in the sunshine and love, love, love this body. I want to read really juicy novels from my lawn chair. I want me, and the people I love, to live the really good life.
Winter, you and I are no longer on speaking terms.
Spring, please hurry.
posted by BlossomingSoul at
3:20 PM
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