I knew this moment would come...

Okay, when something "bad" happens, I usually wait until the ick has passed and I have a better perspective on it before I write about it here. Right now that feels really dishonest to me. It feels like I am telling the world that I have it all together and that I have the ability to always see the silver lining.

Not. So.

D (THE EX) just texted me to tell me that he proposed to his girlfriend.

I am not feeling particularly happy or insightful or loving or aware.

I know, I know. Really I do. I'm just not feeling it yet.