Ready or not...

Come to the edge, He said.
They said: We are afraid.
Come to the edge, He said.
They came. He pushed them,
And they flew...
Guillaume Apollinaire

If I could share only one thing I've learned, it would be this- don't wait until you are ready. I have spent a lot of time waiting. I was waiting until I had a certain amount of money, fit into a particular size, put in x amount of time at work, etc. I didn't know what being ready truly looked like, but I was sure I wasn't there yet. I finally realized that I may never feel ready.

Words cannot describe how great it feels to just do it despite the fear. I have done awesome things in the past few months- healed relationships, created financial abundance, accepted my body, created this website, and experienced better health. I did it all because I decided to stop waiting to feel ready. I was afraid and intimidated at times, but I trusted myself and just went for it.

Yesterday I was all set to write a post titled "Waiting." I wanted to tell you all about the things that are "up in the air." I don't know where I'm going to live. I don't know if I'm going to live alone or with a roommate. I don't know if THE EX is going to call or what I'll feel if he does. I don't know if a new situation is going to keep a friendship from blossoming again. I don't know if I want to continue working at the same school without an assistant. I don't know if this new way of eating is going to be successful.

I couldn't think of the words to capture what I was feeling, so I did an internet search for quotes about waiting. The first quote that appeared was this- "Why wait when you can create?"

Gulp. Oh yeah, now I remember. We don't wait for life to happen to us, we create it ourselves. Well, that's it. I'm through with the waiting game. I am setting the intentions for the way I want my life to unfold. I want healing and peace in my relationships, new and old. I want my friendship to empower myself and the other. I want to work in a classroom with an assistant so that I can do all the great things I have planned for my students. I want my new way of eating to create a healthier, happier body and mind. I want to share a beautiful home with someone I enjoy (oh, and I'd like a better showerhead than the craptastic one I have now).

I trust that the Universe will show me the steps I need to take to make all of this happen. It's up to me to take those steps, whether I feel ready or not. I'm done waiting.