Welcome!
Welcome to my blog! It's been a long time coming, an idea that's been insistent on being made real. I've been reading the blogs of several fabulous women over the past year, and I decided it's time for me to join in and contribute some notes from my journey.
Let me introduce myself. My name is Lindsay. I was originally going to be named Lenny Jo, but I was saved at the last minute. Thank God for that, because with an introduction like, "Hey ya'll! I'm Lenny Jo from Mississippi," I would not have fared well on the playground.
I live in Oklahoma with two roommates. A glimpse into our window would be no different than watching an episode of Will and Grace. You think I kid.
When I was three years old, I decided I wanted to be a teacher. Today, I teach kindergarten in a public school. After two years, I am convinced it is the best job on the planet. My students are perceptive, funny, and altogether amazing little people to spend a day with. The only downside is that sometimes they barf.
I have also been a day-care worker, administrative assistant, activities director at a nursing home, a retail slave, an ER admissions clerk, a snow-cone stand attendant, and a camp counselor. Trust me, it's either teaching or snow-cones.
I grew up in Mississippi where I attended a Southern Baptist school. I was the stereotypical Southern Christian girl- 4.0 GPA, valedictorian, Bible awards (yes, they have those!). Looking back, I did those things in the hopes that I would be worthy of love.
My college years brought about an awakening. For the first time in my life, I remembered Who I Am. What followed was not easy- many painful growth experiences that brought up the unhealed parts of myself. During that time, I focused my attention on past hurts and fears in the hope that understanding my past would lead me to a better future. What I learned, however, was that endless investigation of my past would never lead me to what I really wanted. It's as if I searched for answers in a box full of old junk, only to get to the empty bottom and say "Now what?"
Finally, I let go. I let go of my "victim" mentality. I let go of resentment towards those who I believed had wronged me. I let go of my anger. My heart began to soften and my judgements began to fall away. I fell in love with people, nature, experiences, Life.
These changes did not come easy for me. My transition from a human being having spiritual experiences to a spiritual being having human experiences was challenging, risky, and at times painful. However, my commitment to myself has changed my life.
I am still growing. I know that many challenges and successes lie ahead. I have much work to do while I am on this planet. On my website you will see the ups and downs, the good and the bad. I am committed to being honest even when it is scary, because one of the greatest joys in life is sharing our experiences with each other.
Today, I truly love being alive. My friends are my family. I am excited to go to work every day. I believe in God, though not the one I was taught to believe existed. I laugh all the time, and it's a loud laugh. I love four-wheeling, deep conversations, teaching children to read, metaphysics, snuggling, and of course, snow-cones.
Let me introduce myself. My name is Lindsay. I was originally going to be named Lenny Jo, but I was saved at the last minute. Thank God for that, because with an introduction like, "Hey ya'll! I'm Lenny Jo from Mississippi," I would not have fared well on the playground.
I live in Oklahoma with two roommates. A glimpse into our window would be no different than watching an episode of Will and Grace. You think I kid.
When I was three years old, I decided I wanted to be a teacher. Today, I teach kindergarten in a public school. After two years, I am convinced it is the best job on the planet. My students are perceptive, funny, and altogether amazing little people to spend a day with. The only downside is that sometimes they barf.
I have also been a day-care worker, administrative assistant, activities director at a nursing home, a retail slave, an ER admissions clerk, a snow-cone stand attendant, and a camp counselor. Trust me, it's either teaching or snow-cones.
I grew up in Mississippi where I attended a Southern Baptist school. I was the stereotypical Southern Christian girl- 4.0 GPA, valedictorian, Bible awards (yes, they have those!). Looking back, I did those things in the hopes that I would be worthy of love.
My college years brought about an awakening. For the first time in my life, I remembered Who I Am. What followed was not easy- many painful growth experiences that brought up the unhealed parts of myself. During that time, I focused my attention on past hurts and fears in the hope that understanding my past would lead me to a better future. What I learned, however, was that endless investigation of my past would never lead me to what I really wanted. It's as if I searched for answers in a box full of old junk, only to get to the empty bottom and say "Now what?"
Finally, I let go. I let go of my "victim" mentality. I let go of resentment towards those who I believed had wronged me. I let go of my anger. My heart began to soften and my judgements began to fall away. I fell in love with people, nature, experiences, Life.
These changes did not come easy for me. My transition from a human being having spiritual experiences to a spiritual being having human experiences was challenging, risky, and at times painful. However, my commitment to myself has changed my life.
I am still growing. I know that many challenges and successes lie ahead. I have much work to do while I am on this planet. On my website you will see the ups and downs, the good and the bad. I am committed to being honest even when it is scary, because one of the greatest joys in life is sharing our experiences with each other.
Today, I truly love being alive. My friends are my family. I am excited to go to work every day. I believe in God, though not the one I was taught to believe existed. I laugh all the time, and it's a loud laugh. I love four-wheeling, deep conversations, teaching children to read, metaphysics, snuggling, and of course, snow-cones.
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